8/20/2018 0 Comments EndingsI’ve had a little trouble writing this blog lately. If I’m completely honest, I’ve had a lot of trouble writing this blog lately. It’s been three months without any new material, and that isn’t completely do to a lack of trying. It’s actually do to a lack of finishing. I’ve written dozens of posts that just tapered off into nothing like so many of my other posts have done before, but this time its different. I realize that my writing style is eclectic at best. My voice changes with my mood and my mood changes on a whim so consistency is not always there. But I want it to be. And I don’t want to produce anymore half-assed products. I’m going full assed from now on! This determination on my part has been my biggest issue. I can’t see the end of the story anymore and the way it has taken off of its own accord both excites and frightens me. I’m at once living a very ordinary and dull looking life on the outside, but the reality is so much more. I see so much possibility that a singular, concise ending to what I’m trying to convey seems impossible! Each beginning has so many possibilities so many ways to tell the story of God’s love that I can’t decide which one to finish first, so I let them all hang in the confines of my computer without suitable conclusions and run from this calling in my heart. But I can’t not write! In everything, I must do what I’m am called to do. There isn’t time for waffling or waiting any longer. I don’t want the mantle to be lifted from my shoulders until I step past the pearly gates. I have realized that I offend some, bore others, and perplex most. But on occasion, I make a difference. I need those occasions to come more frequently and with greater fervor. The world needs God, so I will write about it in my way. The grammarians will cringe, the masses will ignore, but maybe just one will read and believe. And that will make it all worth it. Ready or not, finished or not, I pressing on to a future that follows Him and not the winds of my whimsy.
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AuthorI am a Christian, a wife, a mom, and a part-time basket case who wants to be a full time writer.
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