I think I need a white noise machine. As much as I try to block out the constant clatter around me, I still get distracted by the din of daily life. I get up early to read and pray, and invariably lose focus before my first cup of coffee cools to a drinkable temperature. I decide to try a mid-afternoon moment of stillness with my God, and find that suddenly all my friends want to talk on the phone. I try to silence the noise in the evening, an impossibility with a husband who loves to talk. How do I complete my daily Bible reading when every moment is filled with people that seem dead set against tranquility and quiet?
It’s hard to hear the still small voice of God when the world is screaming for attention. The rush of the world is tearing into moments I set aside like a kid tearing into presents Christmas morning. At first, the frenzy seems cute and exciting, but the longer it goes on the more draining it becomes.
I think that God calls us to stillness in our days and our lives because we NEED it! I certainly do. White noise, a noise that drowns out all other noise is just what I want and need right now. The problem is even if I did get a machine that drowns out the noise in the room, I would still have to contend with the noise in my head. How did I go from a place of peace to the clamor of anxious thoughts so easily?
This is when I used to give into the doubts and fears that would seep into my psyche. My noisy thoughts would cause such a ruckus my head would spin, and any hope of hearing God’s voice would vanish. But I have learned over the years how to slow and still my thoughts. I focus on one scripture and repeat it like a chant until it becomes the white noise that shuts out the suffocating apprehension of improbable possibilities.
This still leaves the question; how do I get my life to quiet down before I have a meltdown? Intentional choices.
The phone call or text can be answered later. The “no phones at the dinner table” rule can be modified during my quiet time. Focus is a skill that can be developed and enhanced with time. And my family can let me have a moment to myself. If I truly want to spend time alone with God, I will make time for him each day. No excuses, no evasion, just engaging time spent with the Trinity. If I don’t value my time enough to set boundaries, no one else will.
So tomorrow will have its own set of challenges and distractions to keep me from my quiet time, the devil often comes disguised in a cloak of busyness. Mindfully listening for His voice and shutting out the world is difficult, but not impossible. I believe that God honors a willing heart and wants to talk to all who want to listen. And I want to hear Him.
There is a still, small voice in the midst of quiet, I just pray for quiet in my life so I can hear it.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, and a part-time basket case who wants to be a full time writer.