Resting is working! Let me clarify. Resting in the Lord is working in my life. I don’t know how many times I heard sage advice from an older woman at my church that I needed to rest in the Lord and wait for his timing and all those verses that preach patience and hope. I never listened.
I was always too busy to take a break, too anxious to take a breather, and too overwhelmed to take it easy. Resting and waiting were concepts that my hyper-focused over active mind couldn’t comprehend. Patience!? I didn’t have time for patience. With four small children, I barely had time to pee. (sorry to be so blunt).
I wish I could go back in time and tell that tired, teary-eyed me to take it easy. The one thing I needed the most was the one thing I refused to accept. I needed to rest in the Lord, but that seemed so hard. Juggling a thousand time consuming tasks yet getting nothing accomplished seemed like a more effective way to handle things. Clarity was needed in the midst of the clouds of feigned control.
When I finally gave up control and started trusting, the anxiety waned and the burdens lessened. I am trusting him more and more each day and it is liberating. I still have bills to pay, meals to fix, and a life to live, but I do so without worry.
I’m in a freefall of faith and it is wonderful. I rest in the knowledge that no matter what the future holds God is I control. My feeble attempts to control every little thing in my life failed miserably and made me miserable in the process. Now, I am too blessed to be stressed, too loved to be lonely, and too overwhelmed with peace to get worked up about the future.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, and a part-time basket case who wants to be a full time writer.