I recently fell off the healthy eating band wagon again! Sadly, this time I lasted less than a week when the desire to eat a greasy burger over powered my desire to lose weight. The will to eat correctly completely disappeared after an emotionally charged Thursday.
After my binge, I asked myself what was wrong. What could have triggered this compulsive urge to ingest the sheer heaven that is a perfectly cooked beef patty? It was a heart of un-forgiveness that motivated my desire.
A hurt from long ago that hadn’t been full dealt with, brought about this need for feed. Whenever it bubbled to the surface, I would try to force it down with a side of fries. I succeeded in gaining pants sizes, but not comfort.
God tells us to forgive as he forgave. It’s not just a suggestion, idea, or request. It is something we have been told to do. When we choose to forgive even though it’s hard, we allow healing to start where hurt once dominated.
If I have any hope of fitting into a swimming suit this summer, I have to press into God to carry me into this season of forgiveness. Each grudge that leaves me, lightens me. Every time I choose to let go of an offense from years ago, I gain freedom. The choice is easy; the action is hard.
I have received a full pardon for my sins. I now have compassion not condemnation. Grace not guilt. Absolution not accusation. I am completely free! How can I not want to share this feeling with other people?!
Glory to God, I chose to forgive!
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, and a part-time basket case who wants to be a full time writer.