First day of the new year and it didn't go quite as planned. I'm very happy I made the decision to live on this side of the semicolon because after a day like today, my old thoughts can can creep back into my psyche like an old pathetic friend. Sadly, I reverted back to some old bad habits for a few hours this afternoon. Self doubt, self loathing self hate, all of it.
But God is good and he got me through it. It's amazing how the devil will throw twenty objects at you when are already juggling too many to handle and then delight when you fail and fall.
But at the end of this tiring and trying day, I can smile. Not because of some huge victory, but because of a million small ones.
I'm praying for comfort and peace tonight. And I am so grateful for a God who is big enough to hold me when I feel very small. And great enough to love me when I don't feel very good.
Happy New Year! it really is going to be great!
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, and a part-time basket case who wants to be a full time writer.