Confession time. I am a bit of a klutz; I regularly fall up the stairs in my house. I get lost easily; the GPS in my phone just sighs when I ask directions. I am the queen of awkward moments; spinach in my teeth, walking into walls, waving back to someone who wasn’t actually waving at me, etc. My uncoordinated feet and inability to carry on small talk used to bother me, these days I don’t let it (or I try not to).
I have come to realize that there is beauty in the world I would never have seen if I had found my way to my destination correctly the first time. Wandering around strange neighborhoods and side streets opens my eyes to a whole different world that is right next to my little sphere of existence. God’s world and the people in it are so wonderful, but sometimes my sight becomes too focused on what is in front me, I forget to look around me.
Running into door posts, stubbing my toes, and tripping over nothing has become a way of life. I can laugh at myself and the ridiculousness of the things I find myself doing. I figure if I am going to fall, I might as well do it in spectacular fashion so I try new things. Experiences and chances I was once afraid to take, I semi-boldly attempt. I have learned that “Free Running” or Parkour is NOT something I should do, but long boarding is fun. There is a world of things I’ve never tried because of timidity or fear, why not go for it now while I still have time?
Waving at people who were actually waving at someone behind me is a great way to start a conversation. Let’s face it; when you do a bonehead thing in a crowded restaurant, mall, or wherever, people notice, might as well own it. Make the most of the situation: say “HI”, chuckle with the person, and relax! Everyone flubs up occasionally, deal with it and move on!
I don’t have to pretend to be a perfect, uptight person to please God. I just have to be me. He accepts me as I am. The fumbling, floundering, faltering me is enough. He is working through these things that I have thought of as faults and changed my perspective. What once was a hindrance, is a way to meet new people or open a new conversation.
I still have issues with small talk, but there is so much to share that has substance, why bother with idle chitchat? The world needs people willing to proclaim the good news and risk looking foolish for Christ. Speaking God’s truth is a conversation I enjoy.
I’ve spend a long, awkward life stumbling into problems and falling away from God. Thankfully, I have finally fallen into his arms. All my bumbling, bungling, and blundering have become blessings. He has covered my gracelessness with Grace. I am an example to the artless, if God can use me, he can use anyone!
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, and a part-time basket case who wants to be a full time writer.